Thursday, January 27, 2011. Yesterday my friend, who was 3 weeks ahead of me in pregnancy, gave birth to a boy. Hearing her birth story and holding her son made me grieve anew the loss of our son. Our son was due to be born on February 9th. Our sons would have grown up together, played together, hopefully prayed together. My heart aches for my lost child, for the lost opportunity to parent, for what could have been.

Musings and rants on infertility, adoption, my mental health. Tuesday, July 14, 2009. Change is a good thing. Monday, July 13, 2009. Friday, July 10, 2009. This is why genuine connections with people are so very important to me. Bringing truth to the moment is my creative motto.

Now the lens in my fancy expensive glasses keeps falling out! Joined.

Thursday, Aug 13 2009. Barren is the new black. I think it is time for some introspection. Follow the yellow brick road! Friday, Jul 31 2009.

It has been so incredibly long since my last post. So much hard work and healing has happened. We have redefined what a family means, for us. It is time for me to move on, but I will never forget this experience, and I will never forget you. This is so much wors.

Monday, November 1, 2010. Day One - 30 Days of Truth. I get overwhelmed by the time as it goes by . I figure the best way to do it, is to not even try. It is called 30 Days of Truth.

Our new preacher and his wife just had a baby girl. Their sweet heart will be an entire week old tomorrow.

The decision to use donor egg is not an easy one. As you know, I struggled with it for a long time. But, I never doubted the love I would feel for a baby conceived from donor egg and, looking at my daughter, there is absolutely no question i.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010. Which brings me around to the reason for this post. I just reached the oh so exciting mile stone of my unfulfilled due date. You know, from that blip of a pregnancy I had back in May. No spontaneous pregnancies, no sudden windfalls allowing for unlimited rounds of IVF and no bundles of joy left mysteriously on my doorstep. Tuesday, June 9, 2009. Their posts no longer r.

We Are What We Repeatedly Do. The bend in the road is not the end of the road unless you refuse to take the turn. Forgetting to Remember to Forget. Not like i thought it would be. One Eye Open and Dreaming. The Young and The Infertile.