And yet, I find myself back here, longing for a place that once felt like home. There will be no Future Fords. This name is a lie. 8217; My last thought when I fall asleep is much the same.

The first night and beginning of a long journey. The last post I wrote about baby boys birth and how surreal it all was. To be honest, it still is. Most days I feel like a stranger watching my life as it unfolds. I feel so detached from everything. I am grateful for what I have but it really feels like it isnt my life most days and its just a case of getting through the day and achieving as much as possible. Who would have thought it would be so hard to milk yourself? .

Biopsy results came back this afternoon and are positive for Basal Cell Carcinoma. I have several more cheerful posts in my draft folder but I think they will sit there for a few days while I regroup. All you readers who commented that you also have a weird thing you have been. 8220;Maybe this is just my new normal? Yesterd.

Ok Maybe a Bit Longer wp. Long time no see! Recent listener or old? Big news, so read on! That idea later became a podcast.

Who is this particular Stork Chaser? Dog Mom Chasing the Stork. A Frustrated Control Freak Navigating Infertility. Hubster and I attended 4-2 hour evening sessions to get ready for labor and delivery at our hospital. It was exhausting going to class after a long day of work, but it was worth it.

Why I Had a Natural Birth, Part I. Why I Had a Natural Birth. Because I am scared of epidurals and most other medication. Because after much research, I decided that natural is best for both baby and mama. Because interventions increase the risk of c-section. And then I discovered Ina May Gaskin.

IVF from the male POV. Homemade Pancakes to the Rescue. Staring at the haphazardly misspelled sign, I quickly calculated I had the ingredients at home to make homemade pancakes. Excited I announced my plan to the group. 8220;Do you have pancake mix at home? 8221; queried my Mother.

Trying to survive through life and repeated, unexplained pregnancy loss. On this day that I am so blessed to be able to hold my almost 10 month-old boy, I am thinking of all of you, out there, dreading next Sunday. Last year I had the extreme luck to be carrying my child on that day. Sending lots of love your way xox.

Hope, Trust, and Truth. Navigating the murky waters of a pregnancy after miscarriage and infertility through the lens of hope, trust, and truth. I was chatting with my BFF this past weekend after I let the cat out of the bag. I created life, intentionally, and my body rejected it. Is there a difference? I had an ult.