Monday, May 30, 2011. The car stops and I pop out and open the door to the backseat where a little boy grins back at me from his carseat. Happy raising my living child. The rainbow baby who came after. And yet the grief is still there. Monday, August 30, 2010. Sunday, August 29, 2010. Sunday, August 15, 2010.

Loving and missing my baby boy, loving and living with my girls. Monday, February 10, 2014. It was to put it mildly, a rough morning. By 9AM, I had dealt with two meltdowns and a standoff at school. Is it bedtime yet? I wondered. There were two chapters to edit and project updates to send out. It got me through the day.

Monday, April 5, 2010. This month we want to share helpful links. The first place I think I ever found on the internet was The MISS Foundation. Another site that I think is so fantastic is Lost and Found. Sunday, February 28, 2010. Share what you feel com.

Tuesday, February 28, 2012. I am at home watching the wind, but you are not. Where could you be, can you see me. Washing the sharpness of loss from my bones. Memory keeper, dreamer, writer. My purpose, mother and nurture. A son whose birthing was brief and unsure. Your anniversary is tommorrow, but next year it will not. Magical leap year every fourth. Breathing is future enough today,.

My Forever Babies Taite and Seth. If love could have saved you, you never would have died. Tuesday, June 16, 2015. So the meeting was god. Taite and Seth, Mummy loves you and wishes you were here. Instead I just hope t.

Friday, August 15, 2014. Six, on a Tuesday. Friday August 15, 2008. Tuesday August 19, 2014. Life has changed so much this year.

I began the layout for this blog in April 2008. I planned on blogging about life as an educated, intentionally unemployed stay-at-home mom. I never wrote a word. In November 2008, my fourth child was born still. Four months later, add cancer to the subject matter. My mother gave birth to me.