A BLOG BY A GAY MAN GETTING SOBER IN NEW YORK CITY. Maybe you feel like this doing recovery? I know I do. What a momentous and magical day. But cake? June 26, 2015.

How do you deal with feeling flat? July 25, 2015. So I am faced with the excitement of our holidays coming up next week and the benefits of being free. I am picturing and feeling the emotions of a holiday when I was a lot younger.

My quest for an alcohol free life. Wednesday, 5 August 2015. Who would have thought? It really does make a difference; being AF for such a lot of days. I am so glad I am doing this, have nearly done it. But I have to confess, the thought of drinking at the end of my 100 days does pop into my mind from time to time. But I just push them away for now.

Seeing the world through sober eyes. From The Sober Garden xx. Signing off, with gratitude,. 8221; I love her. I think my stoop and.

Monday, 17 August 2015. At least once a week it reappears.

Rowing my sober boat gently down the stream. 8211; I check my bank account balance on my phone before the liquor store closes early.

Authentic ɔːˈθɛntɪk adjective; of undisputed origin and not a copy; genuine. Boy, did I fell off the internet there! But I did not, as they say, fall off the wagon. Not drinking has become a lot easier and I have to look up the number of days a lot lately. I take that as a good sign. My biggest trap seems to be when I feel good and want to celebrate. Then I really want wine.

The crazy idea of giving up the drink and still enjoying my life. Saturday, 20 June 2015. I just have a bad week sometimes. But I have these weeks where I beat myself so badly, and lose motivation for all that is good.

I am still not drinking.