Wednesday, April 24, 2013. Some women have a clear idea of how their dream weddings should be like. Some want fairy tale-like weddings. others opt for the unconventional ones like the types where in the bride gets to wear red gown and chucks. My dream wedding is more of a situation. Just thinking about it makes me cry.

I am taunted by all my memories. I am complicated with all my feelings. I am enslaved by my behaviours. I count because numbers are the only measure of objectivity, so I use these numbers to punish myself, to reward myself, to educate myself, to grow, to understand, to be in control and therefore. To be completely out of that same control. I want to be spontaneous; but I want to be in control. I am in control; but I. Quite feel like I am.

Music keeps us inspired and imaginative. We wander through the world that only Hayao Miyazaki could make with the melancholic tunes of Joe Hisaishi. 8216;s Strangely Beautiful album also gave us an idea of making plushies that are out of the box. Who cares? As long as we make them cute and cuddly.