Thursday, August 28, 2014. Who the hell knows at this point. The miraculous stories of couples who have been infertile for so long, suddenly conceiving without any intervention at all, linger at the back of my mind. but then I remember I already used up my pregnancy miracle with Kaia. One cannot have all the riches in the world. I will take mine and be grateful. I miss him, but the missing is now part of the love and I can no longer separate the two.

This is where I blog about life, love and grief. I have three children, one who watches over me from the skies, and two who have brought much joy to my life after a very dark time. I write about everything from birth to cooking to babies to grief to Jesus. For Those Who Have Lost A Baby. Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope.

I will NOT scribble on the children. Out, out brief candle. Posted by bon under coping stuff. That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,. And then is heard no more. Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,. Act 5, Scene 5. It is only a website and if i am not here it is not the end of the world. I look around and wonder if i am my own set of ants.

Friday, July 9, 2010. I sat on your couch while you made dinner. Can I help? I asked What can I do? In the kitchen, the radio said,. A little bit of Monica in my life, A little bit of Erica by my side. You were singing along, in a big goofy voice. There was a ballgame on tv and your team was ahead in the first and ahead in the sixth, but you punched the off button on the remote before we could watch them blow yet another lead.

Monday, May 30, 2011. The car stops and I pop out and open the door to the backseat where a little boy grins back at me from his carseat. Happy raising my living child. The rainbow baby who came after. And yet the grief is still there. Monday, August 30, 2010. Sunday, August 29, 2010. Sunday, August 15, 2010.

Trying to live the happily ever after. Saturday, 21 September 2013. You also cannot be bothered to go all the way to the shops.

and the Journey of My Second and Third Pregnancies. Monday, December 14, 2009. Let me see if I can explain. Thursday, December 10, 2009.

Loving and missing my baby boy, loving and living with my girls. Monday, February 10, 2014. It was to put it mildly, a rough morning. By 9AM, I had dealt with two meltdowns and a standoff at school. Is it bedtime yet? I wondered. There were two chapters to edit and project updates to send out. It got me through the day.

We lost our daughter Cadynce Alice on October 10, 2009, at 20 wks due to incompetent cervix. This is my journey through surviving the grief and learning who I am now. on to our trying for our rainbow. Saturday, October 11, 2014. Is this thing on? Is anyone out there? I wanted to say Hi if anyone is still even out there with me on their blogroll. Life is super busy in our household these days. We have a long eventful NICU stay. Wednesday, January 9, 2013.

Full arms, full heart. We started TTC again in March 2014. I weaned N around that time for fertility reasons, which was a difficult choice. Our hope was still to do a day 5 SET but based on our lower fertilization rate and underwhelming embryo quality, my RE advised we do a day 3 transfer.