Eatavocado How I live and try to cope with infertility. How I live and try to cope with infertility. Milestones! November 21, 2013. For the first time in my life I am Pregnant. Eggs So with a total of 43 eggs removed across all 3 rounds of IVF and only 4 c grade fertilisations occurring, nothing to ever freezenot falling pregnant was where my head was at.

Its been one year! June 6, 2015. Ok not exactly but all most! To be honest ive had lots of emotions this week! Im so overly happy and Im in shock! I feel so blessed to continue to be apart of this little girls life! Thats the best gift ever for me! Im shocked that shes already a year old! I feel like it was just yesterday i was peeing on pregnancy tests lol. Her mom and dad have become so dear to me! Thing.

This was not a post I expected to write right now.

Agony of life in limbo. Quietly crying in the toilet at work. Quietly crying in the toilet at home. Avoiding conversations about babies and children. Fumbling answers to the inevitable questions. Watching your dreams fade in front of your eyes as each day passes. Questioning if you can keep going. Guilt that you could be doing more.

Hoping, Praying and Wishing for our own baby Wales.

Who knows if anyone will read or see this but after abandoning this blog over 12 months ago I thought I should pop back in and finish my story. I had a baby! My little girl is just over four months old and is utterly, completely and overwhelmingly fantastic. An actual dream come true.