And wonder how it be. If he had loved me truely loved me yes,. I learned a while ago. That kind of thing it never happens for me,. And so i go around and just pretend love is not for me. I play the circus clown around my friends. Make them laugh and they wont see. That u never let them see u sweat. Dont want them to think the pain runs deep,. Lord knows its killing me. So i put on my make up. Put a smile on my face. And if anyone ask me everything is ok. La la la, la la, lalala,.

I spoil everything for you. i just cant take it. I can only make you feel worse. It feels horrible, as you see the person you like, who you say is impt to you slowly fade and crumble in unhappiness. It feels like being stabbed. I dont hate you at all. But i wish i wouldnt be such a burden to you. I really do like you.