Help for ending an affair, healing, and other notes from my personal wreckage. About 2 months ago, abruptly, I set this blog to private, and gave nobody access to it. And when I ended it, I received frantic emails from many asking me to let them back in. And hundreds of access requests. So I needed to explain this. Why did I end it? .

For those thinking about, having, trying to end, or suffering withdrawal from an affair. Some people have one affair in their lifetime. They feel the pain of their actions, wake up and recognize this is not something they will ever do again, and keep their word. Some people are habitual affair-havers.

Many of you know I had heart damage from my chemo regimen and had to be put on three different heart meds to keep my heart pumping well enough to make it to the end of my 17 rounds. I am excited to tell you that even though my recent echocardiogram was on the borderline, my cardiologist went ahead and took me off all the meds to allow my heart to get stronger on its own! For me, being cancer free, my heart now pumping on its own, the support o.