Starting the next leg of my life - committed to be less risk adverse - and take a leap - or two. Wednesday, November 12, 2014. The rest of the story. When last I left you Tex and I were giving it a shot. I was able to go see him. It is natural and beautiful. And I could see it all changing. I imagined that he could look into our future. And see a happily ever after with me. I also kept my head. He can change his ways and make time for me.

The only thing we are left with are our memories. Wednesday, February 18, 2015. I received the above words of wisdom in an email a few weeks back. These words have resonated with me for the last several weeks. It so adequately describes where I am in my life right now. We have cycled around and arrived back at the beginning of our relationship, in so many ways.

On sadistic feelings and on seductive visions. Passing by in a blur. It passes by in a blur. And of course it does.

Sunday, August 16, 2015. I miss having the time to write in it. And god, do I ever need a day off. Saturday, August 1, 2015.

Monday, 2 February 2015. Yes, indeed, I have a new Dom. And then I broke up with my old Dom, and he was there for me. He had my back, supported me, made sure I was all right, or as all right as was possible.

There are many sides, this is where they all come together. Sunday, May 5, 2013. So Close, Yet So Far. I am recovering from surgery. Has me antsy and frustrated. The pre surgery pain is gone. Going to therapy to regain motion. Hope soon to work on strength. The rest of my family have see too many hospital visits as well. It is rough witnessing parents start to decline.