Your silence was as loud as my screams. As they pulled your still body from me. Pregnancy and infant loss awareness. I wish that the pain and suffering would have scarred me on the outside. I wish it would have mangled me to pieces so that people would know I was damaged. So that they would look at me and it would terrify them.

Who would he have been? July 18, 2015. When Sam was a newborn it was easy to imagine the clock had been reset. It was easy to look at him and think that the past year had been a dream and that Noah was a tiny, healthy baby. I will always wonder who he would have been. Who had told her, and why? It turned out I was wary for good reason. She works for the local crisis pregnancy center.

1 in 4 families are impacted by pregnancy and infant loss. We believe that number is too high for this subject to be taboo. We believe in speaking out, creating a village of people to build us up when we are broken. We believe in healing through sharing. Too many suffer in silence. 90,000 babies die annually in the United States before their first birthday.