Dedicated to the life and memory of Colin Emanuel Stuart. Friday, July 17, 2015. The more I am at fault, the more I am not at fault. The more I an not at fault, the more I am. So, if you are still reading. what next? I know that I do not post often and I have withdrawn from the SIDS community, but if this or any other post touches or helps you, I am still here. Keep pushing forward, and never be afraid to reach out. no matter what time of day or night.

Sunday, September 11, 2016. September 11th- Find the Joy. My in-laws had just left for Rockport after a short visit and my husband was at work. For my family, this is the bigger story.

Monday, November 6, 2017. So I went back to Tong Ren last week - after an almost whole summer long hiatus due to MassChallenge - and it was so amazing. I will be making sure I get there at least once a week no matter what day or what I have going on. It helps me so much in so many ways.

I feared that people would forget you. Here are a few pictures we took as a family in the fall. May they rest in peace and God bless their souls. What have I become? I spent the better part of three months faking it.

Saturday, August 9, 2014. Many hours of most days I am able to seem normal. There are the stolen moments during those days, when seeming, acting and feeling normal is simply not possible; moments which are generally contained to my alone time.

When my elder daughter, Natasha, was 7, she was diagnosed with a brain tumor. She passed away nearly five years later. I lost my son in a car accident on December 22nd. He was the only fatality. It is unimaginable pain and I wish I could say it gets better.

De Niall Isle Homschooling Journey. Thursday, May 1, 2014. Not just from being pregnant! I am tired because I have not been exercising or eating right.

My kid says the darndest things. A Jeep, a pug and an ice storm. Roy is a disgusting human being. A tale of two women. A day at the movies.