Tuesday, January 24, 2012. I am writing today, not because I have an active readership in mind, more for those that might find my blog in the future. The time has come to make a shift in my focus. I am not a new person, and I have not completely worked through my grief. And, my life is not suddenly a bed of roses. Much love to all of you, and thank you for being part of my journey. Dan, in real time.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016. Kathy and Seth were just visiting for two weeks, and that tempered the grief. It was great to spend time with them, and the boys bonded over cars and water sports.

The Howe Plan, 1855. History Highlights at Evergreen Cemetery. 2010 Brentwood Parcel Master Plan. Phase 3 and Brentwood Entrance. Filmed December 25, 2017.

Thursday, July 7, 2016. I look at that post, re-entering all of those days, the horror and the beauty and the right-here-with-me inside this that he used to be. The endless, endless retching. Knowing it still lives in me. You say this with that light in your eye, in your voice, teasing me. Holy fuck, it is true. What I said all those years ago.

Friday, June 26, 2015. I am a gay man, and I have been married twice. These are words I never expected. From me in my life time. Growing up gay, Catholic, and Latino, my expectations for my life ahead were no different than my other three brothers. I was expected to grow up, find a nice girl, get married and have kids. Yet from a very young age I was well aware that there was something inherently different about me than from my brothers. By the time I was i.