It is a bit of an adjustment now with putting her to bed with a cup instead of breast or bottle, but she has done well for two out of her first three nights during this transition period.

After 22 months and five days it comes to an end. You are easily distracted and often forget me. I am content and I am tired. Watching you hold hands and play with one another while you eat. Feeling your sweet smelling breath on my cheeks as you sleep on my chest completely satisfied by my nourishing milk.

A miscarriage story and finding the hope to move on. However, she had her own schedule. Her schedule is getting better. I will take any extra hours of sleep I can get and now I normally get one decent chunk of 3.

Life with newborns is exhaustingly awesome and occurs at a blink of an eye.

Who would he have been? July 18, 2015. When Sam was a newborn it was easy to imagine the clock had been reset. It was easy to look at him and think that the past year had been a dream and that Noah was a tiny, healthy baby. I will always wonder who he would have been. Who had told her, and why? It turned out I was wary for good reason. She works for the local crisis pregnancy center.

Infertility, why me? My journey of TTC, infertility, miscarriage, and eventually pregnancy after infertility. I wish you all the best and hope and pray that each and everyone of you gets your happy ending.