Tuesday, January 24, 2012. I am writing today, not because I have an active readership in mind, more for those that might find my blog in the future. The time has come to make a shift in my focus. I am not a new person, and I have not completely worked through my grief. And, my life is not suddenly a bed of roses. Much love to all of you, and thank you for being part of my journey. Dan, in real time.

My huge list of blogs by widowed people. But still pretty damn awkward. It was one tangle and took all of three tense minutes.

Thursday, July 7, 2016. I look at that post, re-entering all of those days, the horror and the beauty and the right-here-with-me inside this that he used to be. The endless, endless retching. Knowing it still lives in me. You say this with that light in your eye, in your voice, teasing me. Holy fuck, it is true. What I said all those years ago.

Tandem Journey is my story, my journal, and my journey of grief and widowhood with Jesus. Sunday, January 4, 2015. Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. I was concerned, though, if this was from the Lord or by my own design. On God, I may experience .

I read encouraging words from another former widow who writes about life after loss and loving again. So, perhaps my purpos.

Life after loss of my husband. Wednesday, August 21, 2013. Instead, I feel like I am stuck in a rut and I have to get off my butt and do something about it. So, as David Bowie said,. Sunday, May 12, 2013.

Blossom where you are planted. A flower, even in the desert, can bring beauty to all who see. Saturday, January 21, 2012. Thursday, October 6, 2011. First - I discovered yesterday that the ladies in the 2nd floor of my building do not necessarily find it necessary to wash their hands after using the facilities. Sunday, July 17, 2011.

As I sit here, finally writing again after a hiatus, I begin to think about life and all the events that have led me to today. I am at a point, wondering what next? Where do I go from here? .