My second child and our first daughter, Camille, died and was born on June, 30 2011 when I was full term at 38 weeks pregnant. I gave birth to my rainbow baby, a second daughter, on August 31, 2012. This is me trying to figure out how to be a mother to my living son and daughter and function in society after our tragic loss. Sunday, March 31, 2013. I called in to the on call service for my p.

Monday, June 3, 2013. Saturday, April 13, 2013. Thursday, January 10, 2013.

When Mary was a baby I mailed out valentine pictures of the kids! Which meant I took their pictures ahead of time.

Learning to Laugh and Smile again. A bereaved mums tale of Rainbows. Goodbye 2014, Hello 2015. So as we say Good bye to 2014 and hello 2015, I thought Would share my highs and lows of the year. Release of ACAS Bereavement Guidance.

My journey to having a baby as a 38 yo with undetected Pelvic Inflammation Disease. something! Rd 1 ivf -sperm liked my girls too much n over fertilised. Low lying placenta all along and at 24 wks booked in for steroids. Have put on 6kgs max since.

Remembering our infant angel and celebrating the rainbow that followed. Yard sign from 2014 Walk to Remember. A candle for our baby. Thank you for that! I feel you around me. I just wish I could feel you in my arms again.

My journey through IVF, Pregnancy and Loss.

In memory of my daughter Zia Sarai Joseph. By This Little Light of Mine. Six years ago while I was pregnant with my first child, my son, Brady , there was a point where I thought he was a girl and we were going to name him Zia. I kept a pregnancy journal at that time which is now a sort of. Journal for my son to read when he gets older. By This Little Light of Mine. Dreams, thoughts, how am i? So I did what I.